Showing posts with label attitude. Show all posts
Showing posts with label attitude. Show all posts

Monday, March 7, 2016

isolation, wrist breaks and writer's block

My dominant hand is my left.
Almost three months ago, I fell on the ice near my mail box and broke my left wrist in two places. In a split second I went from closing my mail box to realizing I crashed hard on the ground. The sheer force of my fall landed on my wrist.

You are not supposed to brace yourself when you fall. 
I just reacted.I never had time to think, If I would have just landed on my back or side, the bruising would have been substantial, but there probably would not have been any breaks.
This icy day has led to many humbling discoveries and way too much time to analyze everything.

In the last ten weeks, I have gone from splint to purple cast to orange cast to brace. I still have three weeks of therapy and strength building. It has been a long winter. 

One of the humbling discoveries that I have made is how hard it is to be isolated. 
Both of my jobs had to be put on hold.  I was forced to do a whole lot of nothing.  I tried to figure out how to do most things with my right hand. I overused it and ended up with a stress fracture and a brace. Oh joy.

My loved ones are awesome and I guess that life goes on. I still whine a bit too much to those who will listen, but I can see the end and my return to my sense of normal.

I hope to learn from this. 








Thursday, January 1, 2015

fresh eyes

Perhaps the new start of the year 2015 will give me the opportunity to see things how they are, not how I want them to be? 
I ask this (as a question to myself) because I realize how emotionally buried I have been for at least the last six months. The intense Summer-- with the care of our little cardiac guy. The Fall-- filled with the grief of running out of ways to help him.
I feel shattered (still)  but realize it is time to resolve to my reality and step forward.

I work with dogs daily at a local dog daycare. I LOVE THE DOGS. 
I appreciate their honesty and authenticity. Dogs stay "present tense" and do not get caught in stories. I am "present tense" with them always- and I can focus on how best to serve them. They respond instantly.  There is no awkward silence-- like there is with humans.

Fresh eyes. New Year. Look to my dogs when I am unsure.

Happy 2015!       I sure hope it will be...



Tuesday, July 8, 2014

(we) control freaks need extra guidance and patience

Does completing a task really count if it is undone in under 24 hours?

What if it isn't apparent to anyone else. Does it matter? I need to remember that my reality is my perception. It can change the minute I change my attitude.

Searching for meaning and purpose today.