old traditions and new beginnings

The house is quiet but I listen to the fireworks boom outside. All the promise of new beginnings and the truth in fact that life goes on! A new start of a year in the cold snowy night. Cast out the past with gunpowder and explosions. Light up the sky with hopes for tomorrow and next!

It is my intention in this new year to look honestly and learn to trust more. The word trust has meant (to me) at times that we must ease up because we are tired and cannot figure out what is to be done. People say "If we don't have the answers, then we must trust." I have felt many times that people say that out of laziness-- not sincerity or faith. Aren't we required to keep on striving? How can I stop learning and working if the answer has not appeared? This explains my control freak tendencies.

I know that I must wrestle with "Trust" in order to stop blocking God. This "free will" stuff gets me stuck in a flatter, darker world. I deny the one who knows me best the grace in his plan for me. The sweetness, color and brightness of what is there--HIS PLAN- is mine if I drop the fear. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU!